Explanation

23. october 2018 at 19:59 | Attic Monster |  Basic information
Dear reader,
I may not have any people reading this blog. Probably nobody does. But maybe some day someone will come across it and will be able to relate to how I feel and realize they are not alone in certain things.
I want to clarify why my posts are such a long time apart from each other.
This is not a place I write my daily feels or anything. I don't have a place like that really, even though I probably should since I have a pretty split personality. I come here only when I see some quote that I want to share or when something I want to write down happens. Which isn't very often.
Sadly, sometimes I cannot fully express my feelings or write about things because certain individuals know who I am and they might get my words wrong unfortunatly.
But for those who don't know me, let's keep it that way.
Love
-AM
 

You

23. october 2018 at 19:51 | Attic Monster |  Quotes
When I first saw you,
I was afraid to talk to you.
When I first talked to you,
I was afraid to like you.
When I first liked you,
I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you,
I'm afraid to lose you.

Unexpected turns in life

6. june 2018 at 16:27 | Attic Monster |  My thoughts
Sometimes stuff happens and you don't really know why. It's so great! Life's great! Everything is going by plan.
Well. BOOM. It's not anymore.

I graduated highschool. And finally have my whole life infront of me. Especially universities. A big part of the 'young adult life'. As I already posted once here I wanted to attend a military medicine university. And I was super excited about it!
Well sadly I started to feel sick. Nothing dramatic at first. I was very tired but I blamed it on graduation stress, work and no rest. Shortly after, I started to have white spots on my tonsils. Well cool. Tonsilitis. Weird was that my eyes were swollen and hell and I looked like a creepy cartoon charakter.

I was the doctors and they told me I might have mononucleosis. Not just plain ol' tonsilitis that's gone in 1 week.
That kinda changed my whole plans, because with mononucleosis you have to be on diet and relax regime. And that wasn't really coresponding with my plans that I made for my furture.

So I was basically discharged from the military, because I am not able to go through their exams, which are obviously physical too.

As much as sad I was, everything happens for a reason. And maybe the 'constalation of stars' will be better for me next year. Who knows. :)

And for those who's plans turned around unexpectedly, don't lower your head. Everything is just the way it's suppose to be even though it doesn't look like it at the moment.

-AM
 


Us

17. may 2018 at 20:50 | Attic Monster |  My poems
Don't be sad, my darling.
We will meet again.

-AM

Meeting

10. may 2018 at 16:32 | Attic Monster |  Quotes
When it's time for two souls to meet,
there is nothing on Earth that can prevent them from meeting,
no matter where each may be located.

When two hearts are meant for each other,
no distance is too far, no time is too long,
and no other love can break them apart.

Don't give up

1. may 2018 at 22:03 | Attic Monster |  My thoughts
Don't give up


There are times in life when you just want to give up. No matter where. At work, school, relationship, on yourself..
Sometimes it's hard to stick to you own beliefs that everything will be alright when the world, when life is tearing you down. Down to the ground.
But don't give up darling. You might not feel like fighting but it's worth the pain. It makes you a better person and it makes you find yourself. Because without the dark we couldn't see the stars.
We all are different and we cope with our giving up's in various ways. But one thing we have all in common. No matter if you're a girl or a boy or you don't identify yourself as either one of those, we all stand here to not give up.


Honeymoon Phase

24. april 2018 at 22:28 | Attic Monster |  My thoughts
Relationship

I picked this topic just because receantly some things occured in my life and thanks to that I'd like to focus on some little text about it.

With relationship there comes love, friendship, trust, faith and many other. But that's what we see only at the start. Only during the honeymoon phase when we are blinded by the love and perfection of the other. Everything is like a dream. You see only them. Their smile, how they laugh, how they tell jokes...and the rest of the world just disappears. It's a lovely phase in any kind of relationship. You feel like this can never and end they make you feel like no other ever could.

But what happens when it ends?

The honeymoon can be a long period of time or it can be very short. In my oppinion it lasts longer when you are really in love with that person. The more passion, love and happiness you have in the relationship the longer it lasts. That's just Speaking from my experience. But I think it ends no matter how much love you share.
And honestly, for me it is a hard thing to cope with. I am a very romantic person and I make some ideals in my head. They totally work at the start. But then my dream just falls apart because I 'come together' and realize he is not the 'prince Charming' i thought he was. I was utter sad and everything was just plain miserable. Including my relationship with my loved one.
Looking back, I have to admit it is not easy with me when I'm getting used to the not so perfect prince Charming. I don't realize it until later. I blame him but never think about what I do/not do or how i changed. But that's where I was suppose to start. At myself. I ain't saying it was just my bad. We are both just people and we make mistakes. And we do them even when we are alone so how many of them do we do when we are suppose to cooperate with another human being?

I suppose, the key to a happy relationship is being open to each other. Especially during this part of the 'love story'. If one does too much it doesn't work as much as is nobody did nothing. It is important to listen and to think about actions and words you say, about little things you do.
Remember - little things are the number one thing that does the relationship beautiful.

And every step both of you take to make things pretty is a successful step to a long lasting relationship maybe leading to finding a soulmate for life.
It is worth trying. Because you don't know what you have until you lose it.



Perfection

24. january 2018 at 18:30 | Attic Monster |  Quotes
''It is possible, isn't it?
It's possible, that you could meet somebody who's perfect for you even though you're commited to somebody else.''
''No.
If you're commited to somebody, you don't allow yourself to find perfection in someone else.''

Happiness

20. december 2017 at 16:15 | Attic Monster |  My thoughts
Happiness

'What is happiness for me?'
Well that's a question you might ask yourself sometimes.

Some people see money as happiness, or alcohol. Or shopping.
But for me happiness are little things.
Like goodnight kisses, hugs, food I didn't ask for but they brought it because they knew I had a long day.
It is reading books together in bed and not talking.
It's even a random smile from a stranger I just passed by in the bus.
Happiness is a sunset over the sea or a pizza with friends.
For me happiness are tiny things.
And those tiny things surround me every day.
I try to make the best of them and I seek love in every one of them.

Happiness is not something we recieve.
Happiness is something we create ourselves.

I loved you

1. december 2017 at 17:20 | Attic Monster |  Quotes
I loved you
When I told you I loved you I don't think you understood.
When I said I loved you I meant that I love you with ever fiber of my being,
with all my soul, mind and heart.
That I would do anything, be anyone you need,
because you are my everything.
I place your happiness before my own.
You are the only one for me.
I will love you until my heart stops beating and I think even beyond.
So much meaning in three small words that I don't think you quite understand.



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